It was either the top of the world or the bottom of the canal.
It wasn’t too different from falling madly in love; when you
do not even entertain the thought that it could ever end. (c)

it seems to me that I've lost something really precious. no, "lost" is not really a right word, "throw away" would be more precise for saying what i mean. and i am not sure I'm doing the right thing anymore. I'm becoming totally unable to control myself, blast it!