all those things can be easily explained and are not really complicated to be understood and transformed into a right thing.
here is just a stupid little girl, so easily getting offended.
yesterday hurt was just a game - she knows that well, but does not want to get rid of the disillusionment inside.
pain relief comes softly, making her feel herself a raindrop for a while. she can change nothing except her attitude.
therefore she senses the rise of that old familiar feeling again. she hates it, nevertheless welcomes it looking at yesterday's "family portrait" on the sly.
and that's not perfectly fine.